Getting Lost

Locke fighting Ethan
In my continuing effort to succumb to popular and mainstream television culture (see: Desperate Housewives, The West Wing), I’ve added Lost to the list of current TV shows that I am now going to follow.

I all started sometime in the fall when Molly made a comment about how a friend had gotten (or was getting) her to watch the show. Shortly thereafter I read in Entertainment Weekly that Lost was a cross between Twin Peaks and The X-Files. I must admit — my curiosity was piqued at that time.

I resisted, however, and didn’t even add Lost to my Netflix queue.

Time went on and it seemed that more and more people recommended Lost to me. Then when I was in Minnesota for x-mas, I found that my sister, brother, and sister’s boyfriend were totally obsessed with the show. One thing to know about my sister is that she is probably the most frugal person I know. She never buys anything — except for season one of Lost. The fact that my sister paid money for the show really impressed me, though I must admit that I don’t really trust her taste in TV/movies (see: Friends, Notting Hill, The Wedding Planner, [anything w/Julia Roberts], and other romantic comedy-type things).

Like I said, though, the fact she bought it definitely made me a little more interested. I started looking around for the best deal on season one that I could find. Best Buy had it (on sale) for $39.99, Amazon had it for $38.99, and SecondSpin had it for $34.99 (used). Then I went to the Seattle Tower Records store and found it for $39.99. Now I know that isn’t a great deal, but the thing is, Tower is always wayyy overpriced since it’s slightly more independent than other stores. The fact that it was on sale at Tower convinced me that destiny was somehow leading me to Lost, so I picked it up.

I must also add that in addition to all of this peer-pressure or whatever, I was also interested in watching Lost because I absolutely love Terry O’Quinn, who plays John Locke. He played pretty major (though not starring) roles in both Millennium and Harsh Realm. I think he’s a great actor. He delivers lines slowly, but intensely, and is always able to channel some sort of sinister calmness. While his character on Lost isn’t very different from other characters I’ve seen him play, Locke quickly became my favorite character — and the most interesting.

On Sunday night I finished watching season one and also watched the first episode of season two. I am hooked.

What impressed me most about Lost are the character studies. Although this became a little formulaic after the first few episodes, each week does a flash back to the life of one of the people on the island to show how things were before they became stranded. Of course, everyone has an interesting and often sketchy background, but the characters are also pretty in-depth and three-dimensional.

At first I was disappointed, for example, with the stereotypical portrayal of Koreans via Jin and Sun. Jin was the dominating, verbally-abusive husband, and Sun was the submissive, quiet Asian wife. While I guess these stereotypes aren’t really prevalent on television in the U.S. anyway, I just felt like they were a little too cookie-cutter. But then we learn that Sun was learning English and planned to leave Jin, and that Jin, too, had intentions of leaving behind their stressful life in Korea and start anew in the Los Angeles, and that his father really wasn’t dead, and so on and so forth. What originally appeared to be a pretty simple and uninteresting relationship developed into something much more volatile and interesting.

The same can be said for pretty much every character on Lost, though I never felt it sunk to the “Don’t judge a book by its cover” and “Everyone is complex and broken on the inside” cliché that it definitely could have turned into. And with a bunch of the characters, you are always sort of left to kept guessing as to whether they are really “good” or “bad” (obviously not that simple…), or people switch allegiances — things are always kept interesting.

In that sense, Lost reminds me of a reality show. It’s a study of what happens when you take a diverse group of people (and Lost may indeed have one of the most diverse casts that I’ve seen), throw them on an island, and see how they fend for themselves. Leaders will emerge, alliances will be made, promises will be broken, supplies will become short, etc. etc. From what I can tell, Lost nails this aspect really well. I remember reading somewhere that a majority of the writers have some sort of sociology background — and that fact totally shines through.

As for my thoughts on what happened during season one:

The saddest moment for me was when Michael accused Jin of burning the raft and in order to defend him, Sun speaks English in order to stand up for him. Up until that point, Jin thought that he was an outsider (in the fact that he couldn’t communicate with the rest of the islanders) along with his wife Jin. Upon learning that she speaks English and is one of “them,” he is completely isolated (from a language perspective) from everyone else. I imagine he must have felt very lonely and I can understand why he felt betrayed — manifested through anger — by Sun.

I loved the moment when Hurley (I think?) made some comment like, “And there is a huge monster in the woods but nobody seems to be mentioning that…” I figured the statement could be interpreted two ways: either it was a self-reflexive joke by the writers commenting on the fact that there are so many story lines going on that they sort of forgot about or put the monster on the backburner, or for people are in denial or magically forgot about the monster. Personally, of course, I like the idea of it being a self-reflexive comment, but who knows.

Speaking of Hurley, that “dude” pisses me off. He’s always making annoying comments and simple-minded observations and has just way too casual of an attitude about everything. (With the exception, of course, of the aforementioned statement about the monster.)

My favorite back-story has been Kate’s. She’s probably the most mysterious of the main characters so every little bit of information we can get is great.

My favorite storyline has been trying to figure out what is up with Danielle a.k.a. “The French Woman.” I was really pissed off when, in the last episode or so of season one, Charlie keeps making comments about how nuts and insane she is. Well duh — if you were stuck on an island for sixteen years or whatever and you heard voices of “others” who stole you baby at one point, you might be a little crazy, too. I think there is more going on with her than just delusion, and hopefully we’ll see her some more in season two.

What impresses me most about the people on the island is their ability to kiss-and-makeup, or whatever. Despite the fact that they are constantly fighting with one another, they are always able to overcome those little fights for the greater good. Jin and Michael, for example, hated each other for most of the season, then toward the end with Jin helps Michael on the second raft, they become really close. I think that’s awesome, and really gives me hope about humanity.

Since finishing season one, I’ve managed to go through three episodes of season two (thank you iTunes for selling episodes!!). The pacing is a little different than season one, I’ve noticed.

For example, in the first episode of season two we see Jack go down into the hatch and encounter Desmond. For the next two episodes, we see the scenes leading up to that repeated. So it’s like after episode one, episodes two and three jump back a bit and overlap. Conceptually it’s a cool idea, but it makes the action feel a little stilted, to me.

Furthermore, it seems like during season one pretty much all of the islanders were together at some point (with the exception of people being kidnapped or going off on solitary adventures). So far in season two, we have three sets of people: Jack, Kate, and Lock in the hatch; Michael, Sawyer, and Jin either in the ocean or “jailed” by some new characters; and the rest of the islanders in the caves or at the beach.

I know that all of this adds to the story complexity of the show and should add to the dramatic tension, but when you have three storylines going, plus the flashbacks, I feel like there isn’t enough justice done to everything that is happening. I’m not sure what the solution would be, but the concurrent storytelling just feels too busy to me.

That said, I’m excited to see how the season unfolds. Twin Peaks definitely crashed during season two, but Lost doesn’t seem to be going that direction. By always introducing new secrets and complicating the mythology of the series, Lost seems to be going more the way of X-Files, but with much better character interaction and character-driven storylines.

Zizek! The Movie!!

Zizek! movie poster
On Friday (Jan. 13th), I got to see the Seattle premier of new documentary Zizek! at the Northwest Film Forum. The film is distributed by Zeitgeist Films, a company I became familiar with because they also distributed the somewhat life-changing The Corporation. I’ve know that they were working on a movie about Slavoj Zizek, my favorite philosopher/theorist, but I wasn’t sure when it was going to be released.

Lucky for me, one of my friends asked if I was going to see Zizek! when it opened at the Northwest Film Forum (I didn’t know about it before she mentioned it), so I was able to make sure I caught the premier. Following last night’s showing, two professors from UW (Henry Staten and Marek Wieczorek) lead a discussion about the film.

The film itself was pretty remarkable, if for no other reason than the fact it gave me the chance to see what Zizek is like in person (as much as a documentary can capture someone “in their essence”). In order to do a more in-depth analysis of the content, I would have to watch the film again (and with subtitles — Zizek talks faster than anyone I know and with a slight accent). To briefly summarize, the film shows Zizek giving some lectures; spouting his ideas on philosophy, politics, and psycho-anal-ysis (as he wrote it — get the Freudian joke about “anal”??); playing with his kid; showing off his kid’s toys; watching, then critiquing, a television special by his mentor Jacques Lacan; and sharing his thoughts about three types of suicide (physical, emotional, and metaphysical).

Other highlights I’ve remembered as I’ve been working on this:

  • He makes a point about the fact that nowadays are worried about the end of the world and that they see capitalism as the final organization of human society. He made a great joke that went something like, “People are more likely to believe that the world will end than they are to believe that capitalism can improve/change.”
  • He thinks the world is chaotic, and that love is the end of the chaotic disaster.
  • He keeps his clothing in drawers and cabinets in his kitchen.
  • He admits that he is narcissistic.

I’m not sure if the film is a good introduction to the philosophical ideas of Zizek. My friend Aurea, who had never been exposed to Zizek before, fell asleep during the movie and was, I think, rather lost. I couldn’t necessarily gauge if others in the audience felt the same way. If I were recommend Zizek! to someone, I would do so under the in order that the person gets a glimpse at the personality of a great philosophical mind — not to get a crash course in Zizek’s theory. While there were some selected quotations from his works (which appeared on the screen for a too short of time — I could tell they faded before people had a chance to digest the quotes) and there were even some cool animations that attempted to visually explain important ideas, the film is a biography more than anything else. Any philosophy that may be absorbed would be by osmosis.

Summary by Prof. Staten

Following the film, Staten started the discussion by asking for a show of hands of people who had read Zizek. I would estimate that only 20% of the people in the audience (of maybe 100 people??) raised their hands. I was quite surprised by this — but I guess, as Staten suggested, there must be “film forum junkies” who trust the Northwest Film Forum’s judgment in movies and went for that reason.

Staten then provided some biographical information about Zizek that the film (strangely) didn’t mention, such as the fact that Zizek was involved in the Slovenian Revolution to overthrow communism. Staten believes that Zizek’s experience with communism profoundly marked his world-view, especially when it comes to believing in an ideology since nobody really believed in the totalitarian communist regime and the ideology that it purported to stand for. Although the country was supposedly communist, nobody really believed that communism was the solution, and they found ways to work around the bureaucracy.

Zizek’s experiences with communism and revolution seem to have had two especially strong lasting impacts:

  1. He is able to see capitalism from an outsider’s standpoint since he didn’t grow up with it.
  2. He actually participated in a revolution and is part of political history (unlike most philosophers who mainly participate in the abstract). This gives him an authority as a commentator that not many contemporary thinkers have.

Zizek’s involvement with the revolution and seeing some of his philosophy in-action makes him feel that most theory has a certain impotence to it and that it isn’t practical and whatnot. Staten feels that these feelings gives Zizek an “agitated, barely controlled mania” and causes him to refuse to be appropriated by the mainstream liberal consensus — he doesn’t want his ideas to be watered down or tamed. He thinks that cultural studies is an academic façade and that it pretends to be doing something against the prevailing ideology, but since it has been appropriated, it probably supports the system that it critiques.

Communism also shaped Zizek’s ideas about (false) utopias, a point he touched on briefly during the film. Zizek said that in a false utopia (such as communism), the situation is so without issue that you need a new space to survive. For Zizek, the only way to create that space is to imagine a way out. Staten believes that this need to imagine a new way out also adds to Zizek’s intense nature and forced urgency.

Zizek’s lived experience, Staten feels, makes him the most authentic thinker on the theory stage.

In addition to that biographical information and how it probably influenced Zizek’s philosophy, Staten briefly explained what he thought was one of Zizek’s more important and controversial (more or less) ideas: the obscene superego injunction to enjoy.

Conventional Freudian psychology about the id, ego, and superego argues that the superego’s function is to tame the id — that is, to control and repress desire. The superego is the “good” influence from society and functions as a conscience.

Zizek, on the other hand, believes that the superego’s real command is not “repress,” but, rather, “enjoy!” The pressure to enjoy ourselves is the true oppression of the superego, not the pressure to repress. Staten used the phrase “repressive desublimation” to describe this situation where the more freedom we think we have (i.e. that we really should enjoy ourselves all the time), the more we feel limited in our choices and oppressed.

I must that when I first came across this idea in Zizek’s The Sublime Object of Ideology (I think?), I found it quite profound. If you think about it, the pressure to be happy and to give in to your desires and actually enjoy yourself is much more intimidating than to simply repress those desires and go on with life. I’m glad that Staten explained this idea more lucidly than the film managed to.

As for Staten’s overall thoughts on the film, he had two comments:

  1. Why didn’t we get any Zizek commentary/reflection on all the toys he bought for his son? What does that say about enjoyment and capitalism?
  2. There was a moment of unprecedented, naked revelation by Zizek when he made a comment about how he feels like he is nothing at the core and that talking all the time gives people an illusion that there is something inside of him.

I’m not sure I found that statement as profound as Staten did (it reminded me, in fact, of something Patrick Bateman says in American Psycho), so I’ll have to think some more on that.

Summary by Prof. Wieczorek

Wieczorek started by commenting that his favorite book by Zizek was The Invisible Remainder (which I cannot find on Amazon).

He also felt that the film showed the fact that Zizek obviously feels the need to do his work, but then withdraws a bit in order to avoid becoming appropriated to too mainstream or too predictable.

He thinks that Zizek is, in a way, playing with the idea of being an analyst. He invents a symptom (for himself, for other things), which is a form of self-representation coupled with evasion.

Wieczorek also explained, more than the film did, about Zizek’s interest in Jacques Lacan‘s triangle of the Real/Imaginary/Symbolic.

He noted that the Real is what cannot be represented with symbolic language and that the Real is invoked through sublime horror.

He also commented on the fact that Zizek once mentioned how he doesn’t like the idea of people expecting him to be “the voice to tell us what is next in theory.” Wieczorek suggested that Zizek is avoiding being the Big Other and becoming wrapped up in a system a la Stalinism or a la bureaucracy.

Finally, Wieczorek noted what he sees to be the “ethical drive” that possesses Zizek and that such a drive probably relates to the Real and that it should be a cause for the left.

Questions/Discussion

What sort of criticism of Zizek exists?
There isn’t much serious critique, mostly because people (i.e. academics) treat Zizek as a clownish genius. They give him nicknames like “the Giant of Ljubljana” and call him an “academic rock star,” which belittles him (“a giant in a land of dwarves? who else is from Ljubljana??”).

There have been some more serious debates (apparently that took place around the turn-of-the-century), involving Zizek, Judith Butler, and Ernesto Laclau. Incidentally, Zizek and Butler are apparently friends (he calls her “Judy” in the film), but the debates (which continued on in journals [Staten could not remember the name of the journal at the time] and stuff) lead to a major calling out between Zizek and Laclau.

Another reason, one of the professors suggested, that there isn’t too much criticism of Zizek is because he is more of a moralist and existential thinker. He doesn’t do very substantive political theory, which leaves less room open for debate. He makes observations more than he tries to prescribe how the world should be.

Does the film represent Zizek as a clown (and thus reinforce the fact that he shouldn’t be taken seriously)?
The person who asked this question made a really keen observation: Zizek lived under a totalitarian system that nobody believed in. Then after the fall of communism, he found himself under capitalism, which everybody believed in. He sees parallels between the two ways of living, which throws him off balance.

As for the answer, Wieczorek seemed to believe that the film did portray Zizek as a clown.

Staten, however, thought that the representation was rather accurate, and that Zizek is somewhat eccentric. He wondered if Zizek behaved in such a way in order to expose the absurdity of the world and systems and whatnot.

Another audience member noted that the depiction of Zizek was very different from the depiction of Jacques Derrida in the movie about Derrida. While Zizek was eccentric and clownish and casual, Derrida commanded the audience’s attention and was very serious.

Staten noted that Zizek’s books are full of jokes and that as a writer, he is rather undisciplined and hard to follow. Some of his writing is crap, but some of it is good. This is a problem that Zizek creates for himself, and the film sort of points this out.

The question made me wonder if people viewing Zizek “from the outside” (i.e. haven’t read his work) might view Zizek! differently than those of us who are more familiar with him. We know he’s clownish and writes with a unique style, but that under all of that, he has some very important stuff going on. Those who haven’t read the book might only be able to see the clownish side of him. Maybe all of this concern about his representation as a “clown” or whatever is a convenient way of not talking about his ideas since they are somewhat radical?

Zizek’s self-representation
One of the main points of self-representation that people seemed to be interested in was the scene where Zizek critiques Lacan’s Psychoanalysis television special. Zizek claims to hate the special because Lacan seems to be too dramatic with his gestures and that everything appears too forced and deliberate.

This lead some people (there seemed to be agreement among lots of people about this — lots of nodding and people chiming in with their own observations) in the audience to wonder if Zizek was being a bit hypocritical since here he was, in a documentary about himself, being pretty dramatic with his talking and gestures.

Staten disagreed with this assessment of the film, and was convinced that Zizek’s gestures were more nervous and compulsive — not thought-out and dramatic, unlike Lacan.

As for Zizek’s critique of Lacan, Staten drew two things from that:

  • Zizek is not impressed with Lacan’s attempt to give importance to himself and his work.
  • Zizek feels the need to show his ability to critique Lacan.

This lead to some discussion of Derrida and how people who follow in Derrida’s footsteps tend to be very uncritical of Derrida’s work. This evidently really pisses Zizek off since people are always calling him a Lacanian and criticizing him for that fact. At one point in the film Zizek gives a rather angry response to an audience member who asks him if he might be following Lacan too closely and whether that limits his philosophy. Zizek vehemently points out that he is able to critique Lacan, unlike the Derrida people who basically worship him.

Zizek! vs. the film about Derrida
The guy who asked this question was, I thought, a bit of a PWM (presumptuous white male) of the academic variety. He pointed out that both the film about Zizek and the (aforementioned) film about Derrida both featured the subject’s name in the title, were made by grad students, were made by Canadians, and that these Canadian grad students were young female (a point which he seemed to be particularly proud of himself for noticing). He wondered if there was anything significant or telling about this.

He also noted that Derrida acted like Lacan did in the (aforementioned) television special on psychoanalysis.

I don’t recall how the professors answered this question (though I am pretty sure they dismissed any significance about personal details of the filmmakers). Basically, I thought the guy just wanted to hear himself do some amateur film criticism or something. Though he missed an important point: Derrida and Lacan share the same first name: Jacques! (sheesh, amateurs!)

“Buffoonery” disarms the audience? Is that a strategy for delivering his message?
Staten noted that living in communism in a totalitarian regime, there were tons and tons of jokes about the system and that those jokes were a way of saying something without really saying it. Thus, Zizek probably uses jokes as a type of cultural defense and that the “buffoonery” of the jokes always has an aspect of political allegory.

If Zizek is to be considered a moralist, how can he call himself a Stalinist? Can anyone connected with Stalin be moral?
I found it humorous that the guy who asked this question apologized for being an Aristotelian since it might make him too tied to the moral argument, or something.

In the film, when confronted with a similar question, Zizek notes that, though he seems to have a certain admiration for Stalin, he himself is indeed very pro-democracy. Further, he has written more about Stalin than pretty much anyone else. Staten reiterates this point, adding that Zizek’s analysis of the show trials in Did Somebody Say Totalitarianism? is quite extraordinary and worth checking out. (Also, he mentioned that Did Somebody Say Totalitarianism? is one of Zizek’s best and most accessible works.)

He also cautioned us to critically wonder, “What does Zizek mean when he says he is a Stalinist?” Does that mean he really, genuinely believes in Stalin’s methods and philosophies, or does he say it for a different reason?

He recalled the scene in the movie where Zizek mentions the fact he doesn’t want to be absorbed into the mainstream, and wondered whether calling himself a Stalinist is a way of remaining dangerous to “moral”-minded thinkers.

Nonetheless, Staten believed this to be a dubious move and that by adopting such an association, Zizek definitely creates a shock factor.

That said, calling himself a Stalinist could also be Zizek’s way of explaining how an internalized Big Other could allow Stalinism to occur, and that maybe Stalinism isn’t unique to Russia or so difficult to occur.

Either way, Zizek is always provoking.

How would reading Zizek’s books differ from seeing Zizek in film?
For the final question, I am almost certain that the professors intended to call on someone sitting about two rows ahead of me (who had his hand up every time the floor opened for questions), but then some guy in the middle went ahead and barged in with his question. To be fair, the guy in the back waited a few seconds, as if he needed to be acknowledged more precisely (aww, what a polite guy!), so he did kind of blow his chance…

As for the similarities between Zizek in film and in writing: What makes him so frenetic and lively is his intelligence. This fact comes across in both mediums.

He produces a lot of thoughts and ideas and is very inventive, but not the most convincing, profound, etc. person. He would rather say something stupid than say nothing at all.

I think it was Wieczorek who said that reading Zizek was a cinematic experience that involved lots of vectors.

Overall Thoughts on the Discussion

I thought it was great to be around other people (even if it was just a slim portion of the audience) who knew who Zizek was and were interested in his work. The two professors from UW were obviously quite knowledgeable about Zizek, and I am glad I got to hear them speak. The discussion after the movie seemed to really focus on the filmmakers’ representation of Zizek as a clown/buffoon/whatever, which I got bored with, but then realized that the discussion probably should have focused on the film, anyway, and not Zizek’s philosophy. For people interested in filmmaking (which is a major focus of the Northwest Film Forum), the study of representation is much more valid and interesting.

The Real Of Meaning

(This idea was inspired by a comment Slavoj Zizek made in the movie Zizek!, which I saw tonight and I will post thoughts on soon. This tirade isn’t directed toward anyone, and it makes sweeping overgeneralizations. Consider it a polemic, in that case, and let it provoke your mind.)

It seems to me that a lot of people nowadays think that we are living in corrupt times and that our existence if devoid of meaning and that we take nothing seriously. These feelings of moral self-hatred propel things like the current conservative right-wing Christian movement. People want to return to “the good old days” and often seem overcome with nostalgia. I am not going to provide proof of these things right now, but if that is a real issue, I can expand upon them at some time.

I’m not sure why people feel this way, because, to me, our current era and whatever generation I belong to (I was born in 1981, so that makes me “Generation X” by some accounts and “Generation Y” by others) is actually more real and more genuine than other generations.

Take the way we talk, for example.

I remember in fifth grade I was introduced to the idea of sarcasm. A friend of mine, who had a friend who was a year older, informed me that in order to be a fifth grader, you had to talk sarcastically. Everything you said meant the opposite, basically. “Oh yeah, school was real cool back then.”

Granted, talking sarcastically was a way of setting ourselves apart from adults, who tended to talk more literally, but I think it also expressed some sort of deeper ambivalence we had toward the world. We didn’t want to say anything was certainly one way or another, and felt the need to leave ambiguity in our language.

Despite the fact sarcasm started, for me, as a thing fifth graders did, it remained almost a second language for me. I cannot think of a day that has gone by when I haven’t made a sarcastic comment. Sure, my grandma makes sarcastic comments, too, but I think it tends to be more prevalent in my generation. The dominance of sarcasm wasn’t just some isolated thing among fifth graders at Gatewood Elementary School.

I think that we are afraid of confronting the Real in our everyday speech — or, rather, we are afraid of superficially confronting the real.

If something is really “good,” we will say so. If something is so-so “good,” we will say it sarcastically. In order to confirm whether something is “good,” you have to ask, “Are you serious??” And even if we are serious, you have to ask again, “No, really?? Are you serious?”

When we do use precise, real, and meaning-filled language, we really mean it. For us, language loaded with meaning isn’t something we throw around.

Another example: love.

Granted, I cannot pretend to know how things used to be, but it seems that nowadays, telling someone you “love” them is a pretty powerful and meaning-filled experience. We don’t throw the word around lightly. We save it for someone when we mean it and when it is worth it.

Some argue that our generation is too promiscuous and that we lack values because we will have sex before marriage. Also, though, we don’t require that someone falsely tell us that they “love” us in order to have sex. Saying a meaningless phrase is no longer part of the act. When we say, “I love you,” chances are we mean it.

Nowadays, we take things more seriously and we don’t appreciate the historically empty way of treating serious issues. We may seem apathetic and indifferent, but I think that a lot of the time, that is merely our disgust in traditional way things have been done. We don’t appreciate the empty threats and empty promises.

As Zizek has said, ideology isn’t dead — it’s alive now more than ever. Instead of the ideology-for-ideology’s sake that has pervaded throughout history, we are taking it serious now, and it is frightening. As Lacan has showed is, encountering the Real is traumatic. Don’t mistake the shock for us being jaded or apathetic. Who knows what will come of it all.

Top Songs of 2005: Part 3

(I thought up two more ways to analyze my music-listening habbits (via iTunes [my iPod may tell a totally different story…]. Enjoy!)

Five-Star Songs Discovered in 2005

  • “Try Again” by Aaliyah from Romeo Must Die
  • “Until the End of the World” by Apoptygma Berzerk from Harmonizer
  • “The Woodlands National Anthem” by the Arcade Fire from the Arcade Fire EP
  • “Electricity” (Dr. Rockit’s Dirty Kiss) by The Avalanches from the “Electricity” single
  • “You Were the Last High” by the Dandy Warhols from Welcome to the Monkey House
  • “Happy Together” by Danny Chung from the Happy Together soundtrack
  • “Soul Auctioneer” by Death in Vegas from The Contino Sessions
  • “Waltz #2 (Xo)” by Elliott Smith from XO
  • “The Conductor” (Thin White Duke remix) by The Faint from Danse Macabre Remixes
  • “Insomnia” (Monster mix) by Faithless from the “Insomnia” single
  • “Get Get” by Fiona Apple from When the Pawn…
  • “Can’t Get You Out Of My Head” (KEXP version) by the Flaming Lips from the “Fight Test” EP
  • “Buggin'” by the Flaming Lips from The Soft Bulletin
  • “Do You Realize??” by the Flaming Lips from Yoshimi Battles The Pink Robots
  • “All We Have Is Now” by the Flaming Lips from Yoshimi Battles The Pink Robots
  • “Auf Achse” by Franz Ferdinand from Franz Ferdinand
  • “Michael” by Franz Ferdinand from Franz Ferdinand
  • “Strict Machine” by Goldfrapp from Black Cherry
  • “Chartsengrafs” by Grandaddy from The Sophtware Slump
  • “Summer Here Kids” by Grandaddy from Under the Western Freeway
  • “Shake the Disease” (cover of the Depeche Mode song) by Hooverphonic from For the Masses
  • “Little Kids” (Ladytron Fruits of the Forest remix) by Kings of Convenience from Versus
  • “Deceptacon” by Le Tigre from Le Tigre
  • “Phanta” by Le Tigre from Le Tigre
  • “Much Finer” (The Flaxdatass mix) by Le Tigre from Remix
  • “Violet Tree” by M83 from M83
  • “Personal Jesus” (cover of the Depeche Mode song) by Marilyn Manson from Lest We Forget
  • “Mogwai Fear Satan” by Mogwai from Young Team
  • “She Wants to Move” (DFA remix) by N*E*R*D* from the “She Wants to Move” single
  • “Waiting for the Night” (cover of the Depeche Mode song) by Rabbit in the Moon from For the Masses
  • “I Need Your Love” by the Rapture from Echoes
  • “Wild Horses” by the Rolling Stones from Sticky Fingers
  • “Polonaise” by Shigeru Umebayash from the 2046 soundtrack
  • 2046 Main Theme (with percussion, Train remix) by Shigeru Umebayash from the 2046 soundtrack
  • “In a State” (DFA remix) by UNKLE from Inside Out
  • “Hash Pipe” by Weezer from Weezer a.k.a. The Green Album

Most-Played Songs in 2005

  • “Love is Blue” by Paul Mauriat (34 times — due to a night of drunken depression and having the song on repeat… I discovered this song from an episode of Millennium called “A Room With No View”)
  • “DARE” by Gorillaz (27 times)
  • “O Green World” by Gorillaz (25 times)
  • “Destroy Everything You Touch” by Ladytron (25 times)
  • “Can’t Get You Out Of My Head” (KEXP version) by the Flaming Lips (24 times)
  • “All We Have Is Now” by the Flaming Lips (24 times)
  • “Feel Good Inc.” by Gorillaz (23 times)
  • “All Alone” by Gorillaz (23 times)
  • “Talk” by Coldplay (21 times)
  • “Last Living Souls” by Gorillaz (21 times)
  • “El Manana” by Gorillaz (21 times)
  • “Every Planet We Reach Is Dead” by Gorillaz (21 times)
  • “Demon Days” by Gorillaz (21 times)
  • “Happy Together” by Danny Chung (20 times)
  • “Dirty Harry” by Gorillaz (20 times)
  • “Don’t Get Lost In Heaven” by Gorillaz (20 times)
  • “Chartsengrafs” by Grandaddy (20 times)
  • “Hallelujah” by Rufus Wainwright (20 times — due to a friend who liked listening to this song wayyyy too much)
  • “Buggin'” by The Flaming Lips (19 times)
  • “Happy Landfill” by Gorillaz (19 times)

… I must say that the most-played list is pretty lame. Obviously I played Demon Days on repeat about 20 times or so, and that fact is reflected in the list. Of note, I think, is “Destroy Everything You Touch,” which came out in November and managed to get so high in my list within less than two months. Demon Days came out in May and had some time to work it’s way up to the top.

Apocalypses Nowish

About a month ago I started reading a book titled How We Became Posthuman: Virtual Bodies in Cybernetics, Literature, and Informatics. More than any other book I’ve read recently, Posthuman profoundly changed the way I think about the world and sort of put into focus some themes that I have been interested in for a long time, but never took as seriously as I should have.

The funny thing is that I’ve had How We Became Posthuman for quite a few years. I purchased it during my senior year of college when I was writing a paper about the connections between “techno culture” and environmentalism (“while (i= 1){print (‘be sustainable’);} The Loop of Sustainability in Technology Culture”). I decided to go a different direction with the paper than I first anticipated, so the book sat on my shelf. When I recently read a book by Slavoj Zizek, I noticed he mentioned the book a few times (in regard to Hayles’ theory of “flickering signifiers”) and decided it might be time to finally read it.

Perhaps sometime soon I will review some of the more important (to me) and interesting aspects of the book, but for now, I’ll summarize it by saying:

Throughout much of the twentieth century, humans and machines have become increasingly intertwined via computers, telephones, the internet, etc. Not only has this changed the way we interact with others (phone conversations, e-mail, instant messaging, etc.), but also how we interact with ourselves. The liberal humanist view may be fading as we start to ask, “What does it mean to be alive?” — especially in light of semi-intelligent machines and our ability to create new forms of live (be it biological or within a computer).

I also learned about the fascinating American Society for Cybernetics, which is, as far as I can tell, one of the most progressive and challenging group of scientists out there. You would think that they would only be interested in the mathematics and electronics and whatnot of cybernetics, but they appear (based on Hayles’ descriptions) to be just as interested in the philosophy of artificial life.

Of note, I learned about an article titled “What the Frog’s Eye Tells the Frog’s Brain.” Hayles seems to think (and I agree) that this article has the potential to revolutionize science. Basically (and this is rather implicit in the article), the researches showed that a frog’s reality is constructed based on the way its eye sees the world.

Taking that a step farther, we can conclude that the human eye probably works the same way. So what we (and scientists) “observe” about the world, isn’t necessary the “real” world, but rather the brain’s construction of it. As I told my friend in an email:

if the frog’s way of seeing the world is different than humans’ (in that it doesn’t really notice stationary things and fast-moving things e.g. flies make more of an impact), then it is safe to assume that the way humans see the world isn’t really as “objective” as we think. further, when scientists make an observation, they are doing so within the constructed reality that we, as humans, have created within our brains. make sense? therefore the scientist is always part of the system he/she is observing and cannot make observations outside of it.

The big idea here is that science should be a reflexive practice, and that the scientist should always consider himself/herself as part of the system that is being observed since the very act of observation influences the world the scientist understands.

This reminds me, a bit, of the uncertainty principle — though I think I value the idea of reflexivity more. Based on my understanding, the uncertainty principle deals with the act of measuring something and the philosophical idea that something can never be accurately measured. The idea of reflexivity says that something cannot be measured because measuring is only an observation made by an individual with a subjective existence in the world — i.e. nothing is objective.

Another theoretical topic that seemed to be popular among the cyberneticists was the problem of defining “information.” Of all the theories presented, the one that made the most sense to me had to do with the value of the information based on probability. For example, a piece of information that says, “The sun will rise tomorrow” isn’t very valuable. The probability that the sun will rise tomorrow is pretty high, so that information doesn’t tell us much. A piece of information that says, “There are U.F.O.s at White House,” however, is much more valuable. Prior to obtaining that information, I would have never (err, most people, at least…) imagined that there would be U.F.O.s or that they might be on the White House lawn. Since that information tells us something with a low probability, it is worth a lot more.

In addition to learning about the demise of the liberal human subject and about how the frog’s eye constructs the frog’s reality, I was also introduced to some interesting people and books.

I swear, reading about what went on at some of those Macy Conferences was just fascinating. These scientists were not only truly ahead of their time, but could also be characters as well.

My favorite was Norbert Wiener — the “founder of cybernetics.” The Wikipedia article on him is great (especially the anecdotes!), so check that out — it does more justice to him than I could even attempt.

I was also somewhat surprised to see that Margaret Mead was also involved in the conferences. In fact, her husband, Gregory Bateson was quite an influential figure.

There was another guy who really interested me, but his name escapes me now. Perhaps I will update this later with information about him…

As for books, How We Became Posthuman generates a must-read list for any wannabe or tried-and-true geek. Hayles, who is an English professor, manages to uncover and critique some of the most intelligent and thought-provoking science fiction written (as far as I can tell).

For the most part, I’m not a huge science fiction fan. That is somewhat of a lie, because I am a fan, but a lot of it tends to be formulaic and not very interesting. When it comes to fiction, for example, the most sci-fi stuff I read is Kurt Vonnegut and Margaret Atwood. Oh, and I also like Ray Bradbury. I like my science fiction with a dose of political critique or dystopia.

That said, Hayles book has re-ignited my science fiction spark, and since reading Posthuman, I’ve been more accepting and acknowledging of my inner sci-fi geek.

For example, for whatever reason, I’ve been putting off reading Philip K. Dick for way too long. In Post Human, Hayles does an amazing reading of at least 3 or 4 of Dick’s stories. She analyzes frequent themes in Dick’s works such as the schizoid android, paranoia, dreams vs. reality, etc. — all within the context of what it means to be human and what Dick is saying about the evolution of humans into a posthuman existence.

Hayles’ analysis lead me to the Wikipedia article on Philip K. Dick (twin sister who died! Communism! sodium pentothal! visions! amphetamines!), which only made me more certain that I needed to get some of his books and to proclaim that PKD may, in fact, be my favorite author, despite the fact I hadn’t read anything by him. (Though: 1. I loved the movies Blade Runner and Total Recall — both of which PKD wrote the original stories that the films were based on; 2. I’ve been meaning to read something by PKD for a long time, I was just daunted by his enormous volume of work and not sure where to start.)

I have since acquired a first-edition paperback copy of Dr. Bloodmoney (and learned about first editions in the process), as well as a newer (so I can write and take notes in it) copy of Bloodmoney as well as Martian Time-Slip.

Another book that Hayles mentioned in Posthuman that I had to check-out was Limbo by Bernard Wolfe. The book is out of print, so I had to order a first-edition of it from eBay. I have yet to read it, but the storyline (apocalypse, people who intentionally remove their limbs, texts that are misinterpreted, etc.) definitely intrigues me.

All of this talk of cybernetics, the end of humans as we know ourselves, and sci-fi books by extremely imaginative authors, and the re-embracement of my inner sci-fi geek has made me realize that I am quite interested in the idea of an apocalypse and dystopic futures. That seems to be a thread that runs through all of the stuff that really piqued my interest in Posthuman.

To further investigate this theory, I ended up buying both The Terminator and T2: Judgment Day in order to see whether I could do a bit of close reading with them. (Yes, I am a huge nerd — in addition to a geek!) I probably need to watch them again (which I can, now that I own them), but I must say that T2 is better than the first movie and it definitely has a lot more back-story to it. I have yet to watch Terminator 3: Rise of the Machines.

I must share, however, that during T2 I started to tear up during the scene in which the atomic bomb drops and the kids on the playground are incinerated. As much as I am interested in the idea of a worldwide nuclear holocaust, the thought of that much death and destruction, en masse, absolutely saddens me. And then I started transposing that playground scene onto the moments when the U.S. dropped two bombs on Japan and I felt even worse.

Looking back, I realize that I have always been rather interested in the idea of apocalypse. From movies like Akira to video games like Final Fantasy 6 (FF3 US) and Chrono Trigger, I guess there has always been a part of me that enjoyed things with an apocalyptic element.

I’m not sure what to do with this recent self-realization and self-reflection, but it’s always exciting when a book causes so much intellectual activity in your head. I don’t think anything I’ve read in a long time has caused me to think about so much and in such different ways. It feels quite invigorating.

Top Songs of 2005: Part 2

(Okay, so I didn’t get this finished before Pitchfork’s Top 50 Singles of 2005 [which inspired this list], nor did I get it finished before the end of 2005, but oh well. Also see part 1 of my list.)

The List (cont.)

  • “DARE” by Gorillaz from Demon Days
    I don’t know what more I can say about this song. Just thinking about it makes me excited. It is, by far, the poppiest song that Gorillaz have done. There is very little hip-hop influence here. Before Demon Days was released, someone at work had the album on their iTunes share. This song hooked me then, and it hasn’t stopped pleasing me since.
  • “Diamonds from Sierra Leone” by Kanye West from Late Registration
    I love any song that samples, and since I am somewhat familiar with the Shirley Bassey original, I appreciate this song more. As for Kanye’s own touches, it contains his signature (I think?) brass orchestration. The only thing I could lose is the obvious rip-off of OutKast’s “forever-ever, and ever-ever,” which he obviously ganked from “Ms. Jackson.”
  • “Hey Mama” by Kanye West from Late Registration
    I can’t put my finger on what makes this song great, but I think it has to do with the fact that it just feels thoughtful and heartfelt. It’s nice to see that sometimes from musicians.
  • “Destroy Everything You Touch” by Ladytron from The Witching Hour
    I consider this to be Ladytron’s “dark” song. It has a bit of darkness to it that really isn’t present in their previous work — sure, “Seventeen” is sorta pedophilic and sexual and “Playgirl” contains a sense of longing, but “Destroy Everything You Touch” brings the group to new levels. Lyrics like, “Anything that may desert you / So it cannot hurt you” and “Everything you touch you don’t feel / Do not know what you steal” really pack some emotional bitterness and depth — it’s nice to see Ladytron evolve from one of the poster children for “electroclash” and move more toward musical maturity. I think “Destroy Everything You Touch” (which, thankfully, is a single — so hopefully more people will be exposed to it) is a great bridge to Ladytron’s new sound.
  • “International Dateline” by Ladytron from The Witching Hour
    The fact that this song follows “Destroy Everything You Touch” cannot be an accident. The two songs go perfect together, and if I were a DJ I would create a mix that combines the two songs somehow. Like “Destroy,” “International Dateline” showcases Ladytron’s new darkness. It’s a total breakup song — the International Date Line is where the breakup happens — an abstract idea about crossing time and mapping a relationship to the idea of travel. “Let’s end it here…”
  • “All The Way…” by Ladytron from The Witching Hour
    Initially, this was the song from The Witching Hour that I feel in love with. It reminded me of Slowdive or M83 with it’s dreaminess. Again, Ladytron is moving in a new direction and I love that fact.
  • “Tribulations” by LCD Soundsystem from LCD Soundsystem
    Forget about “Daft Punk” and the various versions of “Yeah,” this is a great (and engaging — not too long!) LCD Soundsystem song. As much as I love the group (and their DFA remixes), sometimes the songs are a little too abstract and go on a bit too long. Not “Tribulations” — this song (should) keeps your excitement the whole way through.
  • “Hung Up” by Madonna from Confessions on a Dancefloor
    What can I say about this song that I haven’t said before? Well, I can say that despite the fact that the song came out about two months ago, I still love it. That the remixes are great, too. That the song has not made me love ABBA (which is a good thing, right?). It’s a great, fun song. Enough said.
  • “We Run This” by Missy Elliott from The Cookbook
    I’m not sure what I like best about this track — the fact that it’s one of the faster tracks from The Cookbook or the old school-sounding background or the brass accompaniment a la “Crazy In Love.” Either way, Missy “runs this shit” on “We Run This,” and I’m all the more thankful.
  • “Click Clack” by Missy Elliott from The Cookbook
    I swear, the line “Click-Clack, cock back / Semi-automatic track / Drink a lot of Similac, Shorty better fall back” comes from something, but I cannot figure out what (50 Cent maybe??) — either via direct sampling or some sort of play on an original lyric. This song sounds like Missy trying to be all gangsta, which she doesn’t do all too often, and, I must say, she’s pretty damn convincing.
  • “God Bless and Goodnight” by Morcheeba from The Antidote
    Pretty much every review I’ve read about The Antidote mourns the departure of Skye Davis from the band. While the album is overall disappointing, “God Bless and Goodnight” is a stand-out track. It’s filled with such passion and energy and almost makes an atheist like me want to say my prayers before bed.
  • “I Told You So” by New Order from Waiting for the Sirens’ Call
    As I am listening to this song again to write a bit about it, I am realizing that there isn’t really anything all that extraordinary about this song — it’s just a great, catchy song. And I love the lyric, “I told you so / It’s a crazy world / For a mixed up guy / And a no good girl” — though, I wish on the second repetition of it, they switched the gender so that it read “mixed up girl / and a no good guy,” but oh well.
  • “All The Love In the World” by Nine Inch Nails from With Teeth
    This sure isn’t the Nine Inch Nails that I loved back in high school — it’s no “Last” or “Wish” or “March of the Pigs” or “Ruiner” (my favorite NIN song) — it’s mostly a quiet, contemplative piece, more along the lines of “Hurt” or (in my opinion) the entire The Fragile album. But then about 3:45 into the song, it starts picking up and rocks out for the last minute or so. I guess that makes it a good song?
  • “Only This Moment” by Röyksopp from The Understanding
    I wasn’t particularly fond of this song until I heard it remixed (particularly the “Röyksopp Forsiktige Massasje” remix) — then I started to hear the beauty of it. I cannot think of a time prior to “Only This Moment” when a remix of a song sort of retroactively made me appreciate the original more. It’s a cool phenomenon, and since I became obsessed with remixes within the past year (see my forthcoming “Top Remixes of 2005” post) it’s happened a lot more. I’m glad “Only This Moment” gave me the opportunity to realize this new aspect of remixes.
  • “What Else Is There?” by Röyksopp from The Understanding
    This is the only song from The Understanding that reminds me of Röyksopp’s masterpiece, break-through, killer, etc. etc. album Melody A.M. — and even “What Else Is There?” is a little fast for that comparison.
  • “Someone Like Me” by Röyksopp from The Understanding
    When I first picked up The Understanding, I was rather disappointed. It’s hard to follow-up and album like Melody A.M. And while, now that it’s been a while, I’ve learned to love The Understanding, it took some time. And it took some realization that this Röyksopp is different from the old Röyksopp. “Someone Like Me” was the first song that made me realize this and helped me ease into their latest work. The song has it’s slow, Melody A.M.-like moments, but it also has some faster, more lounge-like moments. It’s a great transition song and also gives us a chance to hear what those Röyksopp guys sound like (since all of the vocals, as far as I know, on Melody A.M. were other people — most notably Erlend Øye).
  • “Just Like Me” (Will.I.Am Of Black Eyed Peas Mix) by Sarah McLachlan and Run DMC from Bloom
    The thing is, there is something about the song “Cat’s in the Cradle” by Harry Chapin that is just amazing. It’s both melancholy and whimsical at the same time. I haven’t met a person who doesn’t love this song. I’m still a little unclear where this remake (retiled as “Just Like Me”) came from — did DMC (Run DMC) cover it, then Sarah and Will.I.Am remixed it? And where is the original? I guess there is mystery, for me, surrounding this version of the song, which probably makes it more enticing. It’s better than most covers since, via hip-hop, it reimagines the song.
  • “Baby Boy” by Thea from the Unleashed soundtrack
    I have no idea who Thea is and this song didn’t even appear in Unleashed, but it makes a great contribution (as a bonus track to the U.S. edition) to the soundtrack. The song is soothing and serves as a perfect coda to a moody and at-times violent soundtrack. My favorite part is when the strange underwater-sounding singing comes in, about a minute before the song ends. “Baby Boy” brings hope to an otherwise depressing soundtrack.

Songs I Found Out About After I Started This List

  • “Beautiful” by Goldfrapp from the “Number 1” single
    I have no idea why this is a B-side and isn’t on the Supernature album (out now in the U.K., coming out in the states in March). It’s far better than “Number 1” (of which it is a B-side to). Prior to purchasing the single, I only knew of Goldfrapp via the song “Horse Tears” from Felt Mountain — I didn’t know about Black Cherry and their turn to glam and glitz. This track shocked me, and I fell in love with it. Not quite as catchy as “Strict Machine,” but it’s close!
  • “Give Me Every Little Thing” by The Juan Maclean from Less Than Human
    I first heard two versions of this song on the November-released DFA Records Holiday Mix 2005 (of which I am one of the few lucky owners of an actual physical copy of — mostly it was available online only via iTunes or whatever). Between the thumping and the synths and the grunting of “give me every little thing,” this song hooks you and doesn’t let go. Even when it isn’t remixed, it’s great.
  • “Avalon” by Juliet from Random Order
    Leading up to Madonna’s Hung Up album, I went through a bit of an obsession with producer/co-writer Stuart Price a.k.a. Thin White Duke a.k.a. Jacques Lu Cont. I downloaded or hunted down nearly every remix he did (my favorites: “The Conductor” by The Faint and “It’s My Life” by Gwen Stefani), including “Avalon” by some chick named Juliet. I did some more research and found out that Hung Up wasn’t the first album that he co-created, but that earlier in the year he had collaborated with this Juliet person on an album called Random Order. I eventually came across it (after buying the single at Tower Records), and while the album itself isn’t a masterpiece, “Avalon” is great.
  • “Don’t Save Us From The Flames” by M83 from Before the Dawn Heals Us
    This song takes the best of My Bloody Valentine (“wall of guitar”) and blends it with banshee-like screaming, drums, and electronic beats. While everyone (i.e. critics) seem to think the Superpitcher remix is better than the original (it may be?), the source material is worth coming back to, here. The remixes don’t fix a broken song, they build on an already great song.
  • “Starts Off With a Bang” by the Mobius Band from City vs. Country
    The was a Salon.com Audiofile download of the week on May 5, 2005 and I just happened to download it at work without really listening to it. Then one day my coworker and I were playing a game where whenever a song played on the iTunes party shuffle, whoever managed to guess the name and artist got a point. (Considering the fact that it was my mp3 collection, the game was a little unfair — but fun nonetheless.) When “Starts off With a Bang” by Mobius Band came on, I had no idea who sang it, but I knew I loved it. That’s how it came into my music collection.

So since this post is mostly just an elaborate list, I feel the need to make some sense of it. Pretend these are awards or something and I have created arbitrary categories as such:

Best Single

This is also somewhat of a prediction (for Pitchfork and other places), but I really cannot see how Madonna’s “Hung Up” isn’t hands-down the best single of the year. It’s so damn catchy, there was a huge amount of hype preceding it, it was release don iTunes way before physical album release… if the mysterious “best single” award isn’t made for Madonna, then I don’t know what deserves such a title.

Best Single #2

Since Madonna’s “Hung Up” really makes this category unfair, I had to add a #2 so that Gorillaz’s “Feel Good, Inc.” could get some recognition, too. The song is catchy and cross-genre (electronic + hip-hop + rock) and, as I recall, did pretty well on the radio, MTV, etc. It’s not quite the blitz that “Hung Up” is, but it’s probably a better song and more technically advanced.

My Favorite Song

A few years ago back when I was a freshman in college, I found the Chemical Brother’s song “Out of Control.” I created my AOL Instant Messenger name based on the song titled, tracked down rare remixes of the song, and even named my previous web site/blog after it. Needless to say, “Out of Control” was my favorite song. Key word: was. Now Gorillaz’s “DARE” takes that title. So, of course, since it came out in 2005, it’s also my favorite song from 2005. I love the falsetto parts of the song (which seem to be sung by Noodle, according to the “DARE” music video. As an added bonus (and maybe I can elaborate on this if I do indeed do a “Top Remixes of 2005” list), the DFA did an awesome remix of “DARE” that I managed to hunt down with LimeWire. I wish I could say that the lyrics really meant something to me or that it samples some really obscure and hip old record from the 70s, but neither is the case. This is just one of those songs that catches your ear for whatever reason and gets you hooked.

Four-Star Runner-Ups

I felt the need to mention these four-star songs that were really good, too:

  • “Positive Tension” by the Bloc Party from Silent Alarm
  • “Chromakey Dreamcoat” by Boards of Canada from The Campfire Headphase
  • “Dirty Harry” by Gorillaz from Demon Days
  • “Lose Control” by Missy Elliott from The Cookbook
  • “Chicago” by Sufjan Stevens from Come On Feel the Illinoise

The Biggest Surprise

Although I have been a fan of Ladytron for a few years (and really like “Playgirl” and “Ladybird”), I was surprised that three of the songs from their latest album, The Witching Hour, made it into my top songs. I will discuss the album in much more detail on the “Top Albums of 2005” post, but the group went in a somewhat new direction with The Witching Hour and the results really paid off. “Destroy Everything You Touch” and “International Dateline” are more poppy-electro-type songs, while “All The Way…” is a slow, ambient number. I just didn’t expect to fall this hard for Ladytron songs, and was quite surprised.

Guiltiest Pleasure

I would be lying if I said I didn’t love The Pussycat Girls‘ song “Don’t Cha,” but I do love it and that is what this “Guiltiest Pleasure” section is for. I will admit, however, that if I hadn’t gone out clubbing as much as I did during the past year, I probably wouldn’t love the song quite as much. But there is something about hearing the lyrics “Don’t cha wish your boyfriend was hot like me?” at a gay club that creates a perfect marriage (or threesome, rather) of lyrical brilliance (or simplicity?), irony, and situation/environment that forces me to laugh and smile and feel a little devious every time I hear this song. Image a bunch of gay boys singing this to each other on the dancefloor or thinking about it whenever we encounter a really hot guy with his girlfriend. It’s totally awesome.

In the same vein of guilty pleasures, if I had to pick a runner-up to “Don’t Cha,” it would definitely be Kelly Clarkson‘s “Since U Been Gone.” Although I like “SUBG” (as my friend Troy has called it on occasion) better than “Don’t Cha,” it lacks the irony and fun so it’s not as “acceptable” of a guilty pleasure.

Another New Order “Best Of”

New Order is nuts. Don’t get me wrong — I love the band (and have quite a few albums), but it seems as if they have released yet another best of/singles/greatest hits: Singles. Already there has been Substance (which, until this new one, is pretty much considered to be the definitive New Order compilation), The Best of New Order, The Rest of New Order (remixes), International, and Retro (a four-disc box set with remixes, live versions, etc.).

I’m not quite sure what to make of all of these New Order releases. Following the latest two albums (Get Ready and Waiting for the Siren’s Call) there has been a new compilation. If New Order ends up doing another album in the next couple of years, the cynic in me wonders if it will also be followed by another greatest hits compilation or something.

I guess this is what happens when you have a song like “Blue Monday,” which is still the best-selling 12″ in British history — you (or your record label or whatever) feels the need to milk that song for the rest of your career.

Top Songs of 2005: Part 1

Last year Pitchfork did a Top 50 Singles of 2004 list that I thought was just awesome. When they released it in late December, I scrambled to make sure I was familiar with as many listed as possible (i.e. downloaded them via the internet in one way or another…). And thanks to that list, I ended up buying great albums by groups/musicians such as Annie, LCD Soundsystem, Franz Ferdinand, and The Go! Team. Checking out Pitchfork list really did broaden my musical interests.

So this year I am going to do my own “Top Singles of 2005” list. And actually, these aren’t singles, but rather songs from albums that came out in 2005 (and I do intended to do a “Top Albums of 2005” and I am considering a “Top Remixes of 2005”) that I rated 5 stars on iTunes. To be honest, there isn’t anything too interesting about this list. Most of the songs are from fairly high-profile albums, so it’s not like I’m revealing any hidden gems. Nonetheless, it’s cool to look back on the new songs that I thought were cool.

At this point, it doesn’t look like there are albums coming out within the next month that I am interested in, so I am pretty confident that this list is final. I may have missed a few songs that I liked, and there may be some four-star songs that really should be five-star songs (and likewise, five-star songs that should be four-star songs).

The List

  • “Anniemal” by Annie from Anniemal
    While I still like “Heartbeat” and “Chewing Gum” better, “Anniemal” is the third-best song on Annie’s debut American album, which came out this year. I like the weird synth-sounding “da da da da da” or whatever goes on in the chorus.
  • “Hell Yes” by Beck from Guereo
    Molly re-introduced me to Beck, and pointed me in the direction of the 8-bit “Ghettochip Malfunction” remix of “Hell Yes,” which really endeared me to this song.
  • “She’s Hearing Voices” by the Bloc Party from Silent Alarm
    This is one of the few “alternative” or “indie” songs that have made it onto my “Gym Songs” playlist. The fast beat certainly helps keep me focused on the treadmill. Otherwise, I love the (I think it is safe to assume?) Matrix reference during the “red pill/blue pill” chorus. Plus the reverb on the guitar totally rocks. What the song is about, I’m not so sure, and why she gets to hear voices I’m not sure of either. I’m jealous, nonetheless.
  • “Luno” (Bloc Party vs. Death From Above 1979) by The Bloc Party from Silent Alarm Remixed
    I’m still not sure whether this is a cover or what exactly Death From Above 1979’s involvement with the song is, but this version is much faster and harsher sounding than the original, which I probably wouldn’t always like. Funny story: when I first heard this remix, I thought it was a remix by the DFA and that the DFA and Death from Above 1979 were the same thing. No no no. Not the case. The fact that this isn’t one of the DFA remixes makes me like it a little less, but it’s still one of the best songs from 2005.
  • “Close Your Eyes” by the Chemical Brothers from Push the Button
    The lyrics on this song are so beautiful — both aurally and lyrically. I love the phrase, “In your eyes I can see that you’re cracking up / In your eyes I can see that you’ve had enough.” I loved the song so much that I bought the Magic Numbers’ self-titled album (they did the vocals for “Close Your Eyes.”) Unfortunately, The Magic Numbers wasn’t my thing, but I still like the song.
  • “Talk” by Coldplay from X&Y
    I’m surprised that this hasn’t been released as a single. It’s far better, I think, than “Speed of Sound,” though it is somewhat similar to their award-winning “Clocks” (my favorite song from A Rush of Blood to the Head). The song is also great for sampling Kraftwerk’s “Computer Love.” If you like the sound of this song, checkout the Kraftwerk original.
  • “Human After All” by Daft Punk from Human After All
    My favorite part of this song is how, toward the end, it deteriorates into a chaotic repetition of “human after all.”
  • “John The Revelator” by Depeche Mode from Playing the Angel
    I pretty much like any contemporary song that redoes or reimagines any sort of old or “traditional” song from the past. Although I’m not familiar with the original version of this song, the dark Depeche Mode version is an interesting listen.
  • “Nothing’s Impossible” by Depeche Mode from Playing the Angel
    This is the most haunting song on Playing the Angel and therefore my favorite. Plus, I tend to hold to the theory that “nothing’s impossible,” especially when it comes to dark, brooding relationships that Depeche Mode loves so much.
  • “Get Him Back” by Fiona Apple from Extraordinary Machine
    This song was my immediate favorite from the “bootlegged” version of Extraordinary Machine that leaked last summer. While I don’t like the more produced-sounding version on the official release, the song is still great. I love the lyrics, “I’m going to get him back / and he won’t have a back to scratch.”
  • “Tymps (The Sick in the Head Song)” by Fiona Apple from Extraordinary Machine
    By far, this song was the biggest surprise from Extraordinary Machine. It was released on the bootleg under the title “Oh Well,” and that’s pretty much how I felt about it back then. The official version is a bit faster and adds more quirky instruments and a very dramatic movement in the middle. Lyrically, “The red isn’t red we painted it just rust” (complete with Fiona’s dramatic pauses) stands out the most for me. It’s like when you want to paint something all bright and red and exciting, but it comes out dull and aged. For me, that lyric represents the idea of having the best intentions for something (i.e. a relationship) and then having things turn out totally different and a bit disappointing. Or that despite making an effort to start things fresh and new, they return to the same, old rusty ways.
  • “Feel Good, Inc.” by Gorillaz from Demon Days
    Not only was this a killer single, but it’s also a killer song. How could this song not make you feel good? Like most of the songs on Demon Days (and I’ll give you a hint: if this isn’t my #1 album of 2005, be very, very surprised), the song goes from one genre to another. In a way, “Feel Good Inc.” is three songs in one: a poppy alternative skeleton, a shoegazing “windmill windmill on the ground…,” and a slamming rap by De La Soul.
  • “O Green World” by Gorillaz from Demon Days
    This song reminds me of the summer, reading Mysterious Skin and waiting in line at SIFF movies. More than the lyrics, I like the sounds in “O Green World,” including that grating scream in the background.
  • “All Alone” by Gorillaz from Demon Days
    For the “May I” mix CD I made some friends in May, I wrote the following about this song: “I think one of the reasons I love this song is its randomness — it’s almost like three or four songs all in one. My favorite part is the change that takes place about 2:00 into the song and then at 2:29 when the speed picks up a little bit. For some reason this sound haunts me and touches me. It also reminds me of the book Mysterious Skin which I read at the time I got the CD.” Pardon the second reference to Mysterious Skin in relation to a song from Demon Days. For me, the two are inextricably linked in my head.

… do not fear, Part Two of my “Top Songs of 2005” will be coming soon. In addition to the conclusion of the big list of songs, I also have more extended thoughts on what I think is the best single, the guiltiest pleasure song, etc. Stay tuned!

You Were The Last High

Dandy Warhols, BJM, and 9 Songs
I remember when The Dandy Warhols‘ song “Not If You Were the Last Junkie On Earth” came out. I was in high school. I remember thinking, “Wow, this is a good song.” But then I saw the video and the song became (relatively) big and I basically wrote-off the band as sell-outs and copycats and the like. I also remember people (who these “people” were I cannot remember — DJs, journalists, whatever?) suggesting that the song was inspired by Kurt Cobain’s drug use. (Does anyone else remember when every alt. rock song was inspired by Cobain’s suicide? I’m thinking of “Mighty K.C.” by the For Squirrels and one or more songs by Imperial Teen.)

After watching Dig! — easily the best music-oriented documentary I’ve ever watched — I am certain that the song was not written about Kurt Cobain, but that it is most likely about Anton Newcombe and/or his band The Brian Jonestown Massacre.

For some stupid reason I opted not to see this movie at SIFF last spring (mostly because I thought I still hated the Dandy Warhols), but now that I’ve seen it on DVD, as I said above, it is an amazing music documentary. I’m not sure how they did it, but the creators of the film basically followed both the Dandy Warhols and the Brian Jonestown Massacre (BJM) from their inception to present day. (Although I guess the film only followed BJM through 1997.) In the beginning, the bands were great friends and inspired each other, but then once the Dandy Warhols sold-out by signing to Capitol Records, BJM decided that the two bands should feud a la the feud between Blur and Oasis. So once the bands break ties with each other, the film follows the divergent paths of the two bands.

The film raises a lot of interesting questions about what it means to be an artist/musician, whether “selling out” is really selling out, how the record industry markets bands, etc. The documentary makes it pretty clear that, for the most part, Anton and BJM are the music geniuses and that the Dandy Warhols, while talented, are basically just another rock band that makes good music and tries to be successful doing so. Toward the end, when I felt like the filmmakers were endorsing that decision, Anton gets another chance to speak and it totally shifts the message.

One of the things that the Dandy Warhols said a few times that really bothered me was that they were a “functional” band and that all of the band members’ parents were still married and that, by 2004 or whenever the film was made, all of the members were married and that the BJM were a bunch of dysfunctional “fourteen year-olds” from broken families living in the ghetto. The whole statement seemed rather arrogant and privileged, but in a way where that privilege wasn’t acknowledged, really, or that the privilege was being taken advantage of by the members of the Dandy Warhols.

Enough about Dig!, though, because I also want to mention two other things:

First, the reason I watched Dig! was because I recently realized that I might actually like the Dandy Warhols. I first downloaded the song “Bohemian Like You” a few months ago when my friend Troy heard it on the Six Feet Under soundtrack and asked me to find out what the song was and download it. I must admit, the song was catchy and I didn’t delete it after I played it for him. Apparently the song was really famous from some television commercial, but I wasn’t aware of that. Then, after watching 9 Songs last weekend and downloading the Dandy Warhols’ song from there, “You Were the Last High,” I figured the band might be cool. I read about Dig! and decided I had to watch it.

Second, 9 Songs was an interesting movie. The reviewers who have called it soft-core porn are not wrong. Although the title is 9 Songs, the songs play a relatively minor part in the film. 9 Songs is about a couple exploring their sexuality and having fun (lots of fun) doing it. Interspersed with the sex are live music performances by groups I love such as Franz Ferdinand and Primal Scream (and, apparently, the Dandy Warhols). I tried to find thematic connections between the music and the sex/state of the couple’s relationship, but the only song that seemed to struck a chord in me was the Dandy Warhols’ “You Were the Last High.” The song is quite melancholy and, as I recall, played during one of the more tender sex moments or during/before/after a fight.

In addition to “You Were the Last High,” I also loved the live performance of “Slow Life” by the Super Furry Animals. As for the non-life music, when the couple plays Franz Ferdinand’s “Michael” in the car it’s totally awesome, and Goldfrapp’s “Horse Tears” comes at a particularly touching moment, as well.

In comparison with other sex-based movies I’ve watched, this is one of the better ones. I think the live music performances really help, as they give the characters another interest besides sex. A common theme seems to be self-destruction/lack of care for the outside world/retreating into a two-person life of sex, and 9 Songs breaks that mold, a little. In the end, however, as can probably be predicted, things don’t work out. But unlike other movies, I really don’t think the sex is what destroys the couple. Nor do I think “destroy” is the right word, in the first place. The romance fizzles out, which, I think, is much more accurate than the dramatic and traumatic endings most erotic movies fall prey to.

Where does this leave us? I think both Dig! and 9 Songs attempt to break the mold of very formulaic film genres. Most band documentaries either follow bands to success or destruction. Dig! shows us both and challenges the typical definitions of “success” and “destruction” when it comes to art. Likewise, 9 Songs takes the typical sex-based erotic “artcore” movie, adds some music, and makes the characters less self-absorbed. In 9 Songs, sex is fun — it’s not some artistic expression or brutal exploration of the soul or something.

What’s Yr Take On Cassavetes

We’ve talked about it in letters
And we’ve talked about it on the phone
But how you really feel about it
I don’t really know
What’s Yr Take on Cassavetes?

I honestly know very little about John Cassavetes. What I do know is that he was in Rosemary’s Baby. Ever since hearing Le Tigre‘s song “What’s Yr Take On Cassavetes,” however, I’ve felt a need to have a take on him.

Okay. Not really, but the song is great and Le Tigre is quickly becoming one of my new favorite bands.

Back during high school when I was really into the whole riot grrrl band movement, I had a few Bikini Kill albums. Compared to the other “riot-grrrl” bands I was into, most notably Babes in Toyland, Bikini Kill was quite hardcore. I remember loving the perversity of the introduction to the song “Carnival”: “This is a song about the seedy underbelly of the carnival / The part that only the kids know about / This is a song about 16 year old girls giving carnies head / for free rides and hits of pot.” For me, all of Bikini Kill’s songs captured pure punk rawness without succumbing to the violence that most male-oriented punk groups seemed to exhibit.

That said, I grew out of Bikini Kill rather quickly and ended up selling the albums sometime during college. Now, as I listen to politically and lyrically tame electronic and whatnot music, I cannot imagine listening to such music.

Nonetheless, I’ve missed the idea of Kathleen Hannah and her politically-charged lyrics. That’s why finding Le Tigre has been so great.

Unlike Bikini Kill, Le Tigre is more pop/electronic oriented (including keyboards and sampling!) so their music is much easier to listen to. Whether “being easy to listen to” is a good criterion for music is probably a ripe place for debate, but either way, Le Tigre is fun to listen to and they have political lyrics. It seems, to me, like a good situation.

The first Le Tigre album I owned wasn’t actually a real album — it was a remix album creatively called Remix. I fell in love with the DFA remix of “Deceptacon.” I also loved the lyric from “Much Finer” that went: “Do you wanna stay in bed all day? (yeah!) / Do you remember feeling any other way? (no!).”

After Remix, I felt the need to get more Le Tigre as soon as possible. Lucky for me, I stumbled across the self-titled Le Tigre shortly thereafter. Hearing the original version of “Deceptacon” only convinced me further that I loved Le Tigre.

Beyond Le Tigre and Remix, I have yet to get more Le Tigre albums. I’ve seen This Island in the used bin at the CD store a few times, so I figure I’ll grab it eventually. Until then, I’ll just have to ponder my take on Cassavetes… (“Misogynist? Genius? Misogynist? Genius? … Alcoholic? Messiah? Alcoholic? Messiah?”)